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I Appreciate You

August 27, 2016
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Friends, there aren’t adequate words to thank you for your prayers and kind words. For local dinners and flowers and emails sent from afar. Quite humbling being on the receiving end, but I’m just goin’ with it. If you’re new to my Umi situation, long story short: Doctors found a mass in my ureter (which I named Umi). The first surgery they biopsied Umi, and it came back benign. All the praises– no cancer. A few days ago I had…

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Heart and Slow

August 22, 2016
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Last night I had a dream about a text exchange. With whom, I’m not quite sure. At one point, he or she responded with “heart” and “slow” but it came out all red hearts. And I woke up thinking about those words: heart and slow. When I live from my heart, it’s genuine. Authentic. And when done slow, it’s intentional, deliberate, with consideration. My natural response, though, is to live reactively. Impulsively. Quickly. Spontaneously. Passionately. Loudly. (Can you feel the anxious…

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Rejection Confessions and a Call to Hope

August 11, 2016
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I’ve had people tell me – maybe they assume because I write my feelings and stories into the abyss-of-a-universe – that “I must have a million friends” or “I’m sure you’re surrounded,” and kind words along those lines. Bless. Don’t get me wrong. I do have friends. Whom I cannot live without. But I feel compelled to share a confession of sorts, some real-time heart stuff, habits I’m noticing and asking God to heal from the inside out. I also know what it’s like to…

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When God Chuckles

August 8, 2016
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“I’M.NOT.TIRED.” He’s bawling, of course. Laying on the bottom bunk. Over-tired. He pulls his shirt up and as he scoots in reverse, he gets all demandy. “Mom, sing Jesus Loves Me and scratch my back.” The same ritual we do every.single.night. It’s summer. What can I say? Sleep is over-rated. Until it’s not. I’m next to him, fingers grazing soft skin while afternoon sun shines through bedroom blinds. And then he turns mean. He’s chucking every stuffed animal (who all happen to be named Kai)- yes,…

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5 Reasons You’ll Want to Make Forest Home ‘Summer Family Retreat’ Your New Tradition

August 1, 2016
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CCA’s (Child Care Assistant), also known as built-in babysitting. I mean I know Hawaii sounds tempting, but do they provide childcare to put your kiddos down every.single.night? I think not. 2. Forest Home Summer Family Retreat has something for EVERYONE. Amazing care and daycamps for babies to high schooler’s, rockstar speakers and worship leaders for the parents, bomb meals, a resort-like setting with a pool the size of Rhode Island, games, and de-lish shakes. Enough said. I’d come back just for the…

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From Hustle to Surrender

July 15, 2016
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Hustling. It’s a word I despise. I notice authors, speakers, leaders who have gone before us. They echo wisdom in spaces our souls recognize even now. I was burnt out so I walked away to refocus. I was killing myself with busyness so I took time off ‘cuz rushing wasn’t worth it. I was sacrificing my family by serving elsewhere. I missed my own community, my own church, my own people because of all the traveling. A friend, Crystal, kicks…

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You Are Really Good for People

June 29, 2016
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I need to share a secret with you. So I’m inviting you into our cottage, right here pat pat on our laundry-covered couch, near random dog toys, and little boy hand-written scratch-paper books scattered on the coffee table. I’m welcoming you near so I can offer a whisper and a sweet dose of truth. One I’m learning in real time. Your greatest strength is the exact area the enemy is trying to attack you. Your specific gift, the one others’ see so clearly in you, is the precise stage where the…

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How Cleaning Out My Closet Helped me Feel Beautiful

June 23, 2016
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I have a confession: I’m a clothes hoarder. I have tops from high school, jeans from college, and undies I wore right after having Tanner. Don’t judge. Us mamas know the need for such undergarments (that could be an entirely different post). The honest truth is the clothes may fit, but they are tighter and cling to areas they didn’t use to. Some clothes are timeless and classic, like those sailor jeans I scored in San Luis Obispo and will never ever…

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Succumbing to Stillness

June 17, 2016
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The very thing I want to do, I often don’t, and what I’m trying not to do, I do. And so enters grace. It’s a season of stillness. Of in-betweens. Call it the calm before the storm or existing in a white noise tunnel but I’m finding there are two options: run as fast as I can to avoid uncomfortable tension brought about in the stillness, or succumb. To just.lean.on.in. To become stillness’ pupil. To surrender. To trust there is a…

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A Boy and His Tooth Fairy

June 13, 2016
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Can we talk about teeth and how weird it is that they fall out? How much weirder it is that a tiny fairy flies into our kids’ room at night, gets as close to their sleeping faces as a pillow permits to intentionally steal their tooth, leaving behind quarters- dollars if lucky? Does it bother anyone else that we tell our kids to be aware of strangers but willingly invite small pixies to invade their dental dreams in exchange for homeless toofers? Whoever came up with…

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