PRE-ORDER CHOOSING REAL TODAY! (DECEMBER 2016 RELEASE)

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To Be a Learner

September 21, 2016
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There’s a podcast episode from the Robcast where he talks about how he used to go into relationships and situations to extract something from them, and now enters in for the sheer joy of being present to them. And those kinda truths just hit me upside the head. Because I tend to do the same. I go into something to glean, soak up, squeeze out, pull from. But what if it’s not about how I can take, but to simply…

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How Do You Experience Connection?

September 15, 2016
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This past weekend, some of our college crew met up at the Belong Tour. Because who doesn’t need an excuse for a girl getaway to learn from an incredible team of women? And for some odd reason, our tickets landed us smack dab in the front row, almost kissing the stage. So of course any time Shauna or Jen got up to speak, naturally, I hopped up there and offered a hug. No, it wasn’t weird at all. But seriously, there’s nothing like…

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When Kindness Goes Noticed

September 6, 2016
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Tanner cracked open the Jesus Calling for the day, because, I admit, we haven’t all summer. Moving on. And he read the sweetest line that stayed with me the remainder of the day: “The Garden of Eden is no more, but the garden of your heart is alive and well.” I’ve never thought of our hearts as a garden. I kinda like the sound of that. Hours later we grabbed Panda Bear Cereal and Brown Rice & Quinoa Pasta and…

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How To Connect Longing with Reality

September 1, 2016
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When I was younger I couldn’t wait to grow up. In high school I dreamed of life-long friends I’d make in college. In college I dreamed of the future husband I’d hopefully meet. Once married, I dreamed of the whimsy life we’d have together, the white picket fence, a joyful vocation of ministry. Decorating our first apartment I dreamed of the first home we’d buy and restore with new floors, fresh paint, and vibrant flowerbeds. I dreamed of babies and once I had…

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I Appreciate You

August 27, 2016
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Friends, there aren’t adequate words to thank you for your prayers and kind words. For local dinners and flowers and emails sent from afar. Quite humbling being on the receiving end, but I’m just goin’ with it. If you’re new to my Umi situation, long story short: Doctors found a mass in my ureter (which I named Umi). The first surgery they biopsied Umi, and it came back benign. All the praises– no cancer. A few days ago I had…

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Heart and Slow

August 22, 2016
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Last night I had a dream about a text exchange. With whom, I’m not quite sure. At one point, he or she responded with “heart” and “slow” but it came out all red hearts. And I woke up thinking about those words: heart and slow. When I live from my heart, it’s genuine. Authentic. And when done slow, it’s intentional, deliberate, with consideration. My natural response, though, is to live reactively. Impulsively. Quickly. Spontaneously. Passionately. Loudly. (Can you feel the anxious…

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Rejection Confessions and a Call to Hope

August 11, 2016
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I’ve had people tell me – maybe they assume because I write my feelings and stories into the abyss-of-a-universe – that “I must have a million friends” or “I’m sure you’re surrounded,” and kind words along those lines. Bless. Don’t get me wrong. I do have friends. Whom I cannot live without. But I feel compelled to share a confession of sorts, some real-time heart stuff, habits I’m noticing and asking God to heal from the inside out. I also know what it’s like to…

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When God Chuckles

August 8, 2016
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“I’M.NOT.TIRED.” He’s bawling, of course. Laying on the bottom bunk. Over-tired. He pulls his shirt up and as he scoots in reverse, he gets all demandy. “Mom, sing Jesus Loves Me and scratch my back.” The same ritual we do every.single.night. It’s summer. What can I say? Sleep is over-rated. Until it’s not. I’m next to him, fingers grazing soft skin while afternoon sun shines through bedroom blinds. And then he turns mean. He’s chucking every stuffed animal (who all happen to be named Kai)- yes,…

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5 Reasons You’ll Want to Make Forest Home ‘Summer Family Retreat’ Your New Tradition

August 1, 2016
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CCA’s (Child Care Assistant), also known as built-in babysitting. I mean I know Hawaii sounds tempting, but do they provide childcare to put your kiddos down every.single.night? I think not. 2. Forest Home Summer Family Retreat has something for EVERYONE. Amazing care and daycamps for babies to high schooler’s, rockstar speakers and worship leaders for the parents, bomb meals, a resort-like setting with a pool the size of Rhode Island, games, and de-lish shakes. Enough said. I’d come back just for the…

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From Hustle to Surrender

July 15, 2016
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Hustling. It’s a word I despise. I notice authors, speakers, leaders who have gone before us. They echo wisdom in spaces our souls recognize even now. I was burnt out so I walked away to refocus. I was killing myself with busyness so I took time off ‘cuz rushing wasn’t worth it. I was sacrificing my family by serving elsewhere. I missed my own community, my own church, my own people because of all the traveling. A friend, Crystal, kicks…

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