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From Hustle to Surrender

July 15, 2016
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Hustling. It’s a word I despise. I notice authors, speakers, leaders who have gone before us. They echo wisdom in spaces our souls recognize even now. I was burnt out so I walked away to refocus. I was killing myself with busyness so I took time off ‘cuz rushing wasn’t worth it. I was sacrificing my family by serving elsewhere. I missed my own community, my own church, my own people because of all the traveling. A friend, Crystal, kicks…

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You Are Really Good for People

June 29, 2016
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I need to share a secret with you. So I’m inviting you into our cottage, right here pat pat on our laundry-covered couch, near random dog toys, and little boy hand-written scratch-paper books scattered on the coffee table. I’m welcoming you near so I can offer a whisper and a sweet dose of truth. One I’m learning in real time. Your greatest strength is the exact area the enemy is trying to attack you. Your specific gift, the one others’ see so clearly in you, is the precise stage where the…

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How Cleaning Out My Closet Helped me Feel Beautiful

June 23, 2016
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I have a confession: I’m a clothes hoarder. I have tops from high school, jeans from college, and undies I wore right after having Tanner. Don’t judge. Us mamas know the need for such undergarments (that could be an entirely different post). The honest truth is the clothes may fit, but they are tighter and cling to areas they didn’t use to. Some clothes are timeless and classic, like those sailor jeans I scored in San Luis Obispo and will never ever…

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Succumbing to Stillness

June 17, 2016
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The very thing I want to do, I often don’t, and what I’m trying not to do, I do. And so enters grace. It’s a season of stillness. Of in-betweens. Call it the calm before the storm or existing in a white noise tunnel but I’m finding there are two options: run as fast as I can to avoid uncomfortable tension brought about in the stillness, or succumb. To just.lean.on.in. To become stillness’ pupil. To surrender. To trust there is a…

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A Boy and His Tooth Fairy

June 13, 2016
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Can we talk about teeth and how weird it is that they fall out? How much weirder it is that a tiny fairy flies into our kids’ room at night, gets as close to their sleeping faces as a pillow permits to intentionally steal their tooth, leaving behind quarters- dollars if lucky? Does it bother anyone else that we tell our kids to be aware of strangers but willingly invite small pixies to invade their dental dreams in exchange for homeless toofers? Whoever came up with…

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Go With what Excites You

June 7, 2016
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It gets me excited, this idea, I smiled into the phone. Pay attention to that, she said. Always pay attention to what excites you. It’s funny, but sometimes the simplest of words can capture a thought and then slowly release it as the day stretches on. Pay attention to what excites you. I love that. Instead of tweaking and hurrying what’s not coming from a space of aliveness, there is such wisdom in paying attention to what excites us. For at the root…

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When Your Spirit is Well but Your Soul is Not

June 3, 2016
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The urologist moved the camera along my insides, while multiple doctors and nurses ducked in, and I believe at one point the Fed Ex guy even popped by for a sneak peek, their collective confusion evident. In my 30 years of being a urologist and doing thousands of these, I’ve never seen anything like this. It’s always fun to hear a specialist say those words with a cement face. So here we are. At a loss for this weird mass my bladder…

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So THIS.IS.HAPPENING!

June 1, 2016

Cue ALL THE FEELS because this book right here is AVAILABLE FOR PRE-ORDER ON AMAZON!!! If, you too, are realizing life isn’t going as planned (does it ever?), I wrote this book for you. Because I want to know God is genuinely present in real life circumstances like busyness and loss and that awkward conversation with a friend. When I stop planning out my life like the ideal party and instead choose to notice Him, respond, and even celebrate the pits and peaks…

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An Invitation to Really Live

May 24, 2016
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Weeks ago I noticed complacency surfacing. I know when it’s near because my mind entertains the phrase, Is this it? There must be more.  Do you ever wonder the same? By mistake I started praying, God, help me refocus. Help me live like today is my last. Help me like, really really live. With joy and love and a cut-through-the-fat-peace only You offer. Thursday night I had a dream. A beyond goofy dream. My filter was down, and I was fully just living…

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When It Hits Too Close to Home

May 19, 2016
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We’re gonna schedule a CAT Scan and some other tests. Because of your dad’s history and how young you are. I watched her doctor eyes, their laser-beam focus, void of emotions, and cringed. I hate that my dad died of kidney cancer and that it comes up when family history questions are asked. As soon as I pulled up to the hospital parking lot and sandwiched into a spot, they came. Those hot streams of tears. Where do they even come…

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